El Berg Hole's Scribble-ly Bits

Computer Reccs? Flash MX 2004 and Vista?

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 14:55:50 GMT

So, it became VERY apparent to me this weekend while I attempted to work on my long owed commissions, that I am probably going to need a new computer sooner rather then later..so here's my question for you tech savvy folks out there...

I've ordered my comps through DELL before, but Matthew told me that recently you can only get your Dell with the Windows Vista OS (EW Vista!). Now I've heard rumors that Vista doesn't always run older programs, and this could be very bad indeed. I have my Flash MX 2004 (and Dreamweaver etc etc etc) which I actually PURCHASED, and I don't want to be forced to drop that load of money again..so does anyone have Vista and know if it runs Flash MX 2004?? The studios that I do work for use that program in particular so its VERY important that my new comp be able to run it.

The OTHER alternative would be to get the new Imac, because Matthew is HORRIBLY in love with it, and apparently it can run Apple AND Windows OS? Does anyone have their Imac set up like that? Does it run okay...and even better, does it also run Flash MX 04 (I have heard that flash runs wonky on Macs)? I kinda don't see the point in getting a mac when all our software is for PC (and also I kinda don't like Macs at ALL..'cept they're pretty and their screens are AMAZING)

Soo...any suggestions? Advice? I'm always easily confuuuzed by these things :P ;)

Posituvity!

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 21:48:03 GMT

Yanked from a bunch of folks! Cuz I am feelin RUN DOWN yo..... ;)

"One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind that you're not so bad in other people's eyes after all."

What. The. Fuck.

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 15:24:47 GMT

For all the ladies/friends of ladies on my Flist... I'm posting this here because the main news outlets aren't covering it (suprise suprise!)

HHS moves to define contraception as abortion.

On Jezabel

Sign the Petition to the White House over at Planned Parenthood

I swear to God every time I think this administration couldn't get anymore evil they pull another one out of their ass. (and YES I use the word evil quite emphatically now, I can't think of any other word to describe it)

Bush Lifts Executive ban on Offshore Drilling - THIS is also chapping my ass. Seriously it's like they have a checklist in the oval office of ways to destroy the world before Jan. 2009.

HOW did we let this happen America?!?! 8 YEARS?! SERIOUSLY!? If you let me down in November, so help me God.....

Bits and bobs....Dogs, Frog and Dr. Who!

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 19:31:33 GMT

For folks who may have been wondering...the doggy situation seems to have righted itself!

I concluded awhile back that Georgia's strange behavior was mostly likely due to some fight she and Kiki got into when Matthew and I were out of the room. It turns out Kiki came to us awfully food aggressive towards dogs (which makes sense since she was rescued from a hording situation and shared a basement with a ton of other dogs). The aggression rarely shows itself when we're present because we jumped on correcting that behavior ASAP, but one day I got home from work, left the pups on the bed while I stepped out of the room for a moment and all of sudden all hell broke loose! Apparently a chew bone had been left in the bed and Kiki was going after it like crazy. I put a stop to that nonsense at once and immediately went around picking up any and all chew toys/foody items that were left out in doggy reach. Also I've gotten into the habit of taking the bench away from the end of the bed while we're out, so Georgia has a Kiki free place in the house that she can escape to if she needs it. It seems to have worked wonders! The two of them are now the best of friends, and wrestle and share space and love perfectly! They even let the other lay next to them/step over them etc, which is something Georgia would never let Jasper do. Peace reigns in puppyland once again! Hurrah!! (Now if we could only get Kiki to behave on the walk..she's such a little Cujo on the leash!)

Lets see...what else is exciting.....Theres a Reptile Show on Sun..I am SO EXCITED!!

Theres a new tank I want to get for my Dumpys (the last one on the page), which is about twice the size of their current one and will also allow me to expand my Dumpy collection (I want one for every Weasley! Only have Fred George and Charlie so far... Heehee! <-- DORK

Matthew's very excited as well, obviously..even more so since his office frogs have had a total of 13 babies and in another month or so they should be ready to sell/trade. At $50 a pop they should fund a new collection of froggies quite nicely....if he has his way I think we might be over run! I guess this is what happens whe you take a boy from Southern farmers stock and move him to the city.. ;)

The Dr Who Finale was..interesting...

I think I've come to terms with it. It's the only way I could get Doctor/Rose to be properly cannon, so I guess I'm grateful....it's growing on me. And the messy, loosely structured, not entirely satisfying, and slightly dissapointing WHIZ!FLASH!BANG! of Rusty's scripts was just as I expected. We didn't get a floaty Jesus!Doctor so I considered myself lucky. I am SO READY to bid RTD goodbye and am awaiting Moffet's first season with GIDDY ANTICIPATION. I'm not even excited about the Xmas special....Cybermen? AGAIN? Seriously I think this man can only write ONE love story, ONE Character and TWO villians. BLARG. (also I HATE cybermen...LAAAAME)

OMG Why isn't today over yet? WANTS MUH WEEKEND!!

Three Delivery Premiere Par-tay yo!!

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 14:43:59 GMT

Hey hey folks! Exciting news! It has finally arrived! Three Delivery, the latest show I've been working on, is premiering tomorrow night on Nicktoons! Check your local listings! It will also be airing internationally at some point on the BBC, and in France and Canada...and other places that I can't recall at the moment. Anyhoo, it's actually a really cute show with badass kungfu, magic and Chinese food..whats not to love about that?

Check it out!

Who is Barack Obama?

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 18:31:43 GMT

Oh my Lord, purrbaby just posted this and it made me LOL...

There are many things people do not know about BARACK OBAMA. It is every
American's duty to read this message and pass it along to all of their
friends and loved ones.

Barack Obama wears a FLAG PIN at all times. Even in the shower.

Barack Obama says the PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE every time he sees an American
flag. He also ends every sentence by saying, "WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR
ALL." Click *here* for video of Obama quietly mouthing the PLEDGE OF
ALLEGIANCE in his sleep.

A tape exists of Michelle Obama saying the PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE at a
conference on PATRIOTISM.

Every weekend, Barack and Michelle take their daughters HUNTING.

Barack Obama is a PATRIOTIC AMERICAN. He has one HAND over his HEART at all
times. He occasionally switches when one arm gets tired, which is almost
never because he is STRONG.

Barack Obama has the DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE tattooed on his stomach.
It's upside-down, so he can read it while doing sit-ups.

There's only one artist on Barack Obama's iPod: FRANCIS SCOTT KEY.

Barack Obama is a DEVOUT CHRISTIAN. His favorite book is the BIBLE, which he
has memorized. His name means HE WHO LOVES JESUS in the ancient language of
Aramaic. He is PROUD that Jesus was an American.

Barack Obama goes to church every morning. He goes to church every
afternoon. He goes to church every evening. He is IN CHURCH RIGHT NOW.

Barack Obama's new airplane includes a conference room, a kitchen, and a
MEGACHURCH.

Barack Obama's skin is the color of AMERICAN SOIL.

Barack Obama buys AMERICAN STUFF. He owns a FORD, a BASEBALL TEAM, and a
COMPUTER HE BUILT HIMSELF FROM AMERICAN PARTS. He travels mostly by
FORKLIFT.

Barack Obama says that Americans cling to GUNS and RELIGION because they are
AWESOME.

Obsession? Me? Naaaah...

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 14:36:56 GMT

OMG GAIS! ARTSES!

Last night I was cleaning up my desk, and I found some papers that I had doodled on at work when we were searching for our new puppy baby..I guess I was a little "obsessed"....I'm surprised I didn't freak my coworkers out, it's amazing I'm still allowed in the building... ;)

Three Delivery and Letterz

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 16:16:15 GMT

OOH! Look guys!! The website for the show I've been working on has gone live! Check it out!!
Three Delivery!

It should be premiering next month sometime on Nicktoons, I'll keep you guys posted...It's actually been alot of fun to work on so I'm excited to see it on air....also the theme song rocks (it's written and preformed by my Director and his band)

Slow morning at work..so heres some more letters!

D - Dr. Who by akasha_lilian

Aaaah Dr. Who, so fabulous! I was sucked into it's wonderous little world by my delightful coworkers, and I regret nothing! XD I'm a NuWho gal though..I have tried to go back and watch some old episodes, but I dunno...I just can't get through them for some reason. It's proabaly the same reason I don't watch anime anymore, I fear the commitment. XD I just don't have the time to sit down and catch up on 40 years of Who-ness on top of all my other commitments/obsessions! But NuWho delights me enough all on it's own! ;)

I have been enjoying season 4 IMMENSELY, and thats not just because I know who's comming back in the finale (is a big Doc/Rose dork), I'm just really REALLY loving Donna. I hate to say it, but she might be my favorite companion to date! Rose and the doc were ADORABLE of course, but Donna is sassy and fabulous and not afraid to tell the doc where to get off (and he needs to be told that often I feel..heehee!)

Also I am THRILLED TO PEICES that Moffet will be taking over from RTD.. OMG GUYS it will ROCK SO HARD. I love Rusty..but...meh...I'm kinda ready for a change, he's been repeating himself, and I've been missing the gravitas that the series had in S1. All of Moffet's episodes have been AMAZING...I loved him before I even knew who he was (Empty Child anyone?) and I LOVE the way he structures his stories.... RTD has all the subtley and tact of a Las Vegas floor show, and while that is fun fun fun in it's own way, I am SO excited for the dark serious, heavier stuff Moffet will hopefully bring to the characters....

Also, Cybermen blow. Daleks 4 EVA!

E - Elephant Rides by cre8vsteph

I have never been on one (Dumbo in D*Land not withstanding)...I don't know if I will get the oppertunity TO go on one. I would like to think that at some point in my life I will visit a place where Elephant Rides would be a possible activity. They seem like they would be scary though... I have a few friends who were recently in India, and I think they did go on an elephant ride. The elephant was all dressed up and painted pretty too, I would totally love to see a dressed up and painted elepant in person!

F - Family by akasha_lilian

I like my family, and family has always been important to me. I'm not sure what else I can say without sounding like a sappy sap! I admit, I totally took them for granted when I was growing up, but as I get older, after being out on my own in the world, I've come to realize how amazing they really are. Everyday I'm reminded how grateful I should be for their love and support and how mind blowingly crazy it is that my parents did all that they managed to do for me and my bro.

I have a good model to follow whenever Matthew and I start thinking about having kids,I just hope I don't screw it up! LOL!

G - Gargoyles by scottmatthew

OMG Gargoyles!!! So many "firsts" for me! First "grown up" cartoon I ever got into, first exposure to online fandom, first exposure to RPing, first fan-character, first web page, first (and last) fanfic. Good lord that show spawned SO MUCH dorkery in me! I started watching it almost and the exact same time that my Dad got us internet (ahhh dial up!), and so the two went hand in hand. I got online, entered my first chatroom (S8 baby!) and the rest is history! My fondest memories revolve around staying up to all hours RPing with whimsicalcow, scottmatthew, candyplamer and laurean. It was SO MUCH FUN! I met so many cool people, and through them I was exposed to so many other cool things. I can honestly say that without it in my life I would be a completely different person today. I LOVE YOUS GUYS!! XD

H - Hobbies by bean_bunny

Ah, hobbies..I wish I had some! I mean, I used to, before drawing became my living, it was my obsessive hobby. After that I suppose dorkery became a sort of hobby...but since we moved to NYC, even that has fallen by the wayside. I feel really guilty about it. I haven't drawn outside of work in a dog's age, and thats BAD. But all of a sudden life seems to have gotten so busy and stressful, if were not out with friends, or running errands or working on the house, I want to take my free time to spend with my man and my fuzzy kids. I'm just so tired all the time. In a way RI was easy because there was literally NOTHING to do, and I feel like I'm making up for the 4 years of isolation now....

But last night Matthew set up his studio in our livingroom, and started painting agin..and if he starts painting again I think I'll start drawing again. We work really well together in that sense, we always have..so heres hoping to get back on that horse! XD

I - Icons by bean_bunny

I have decided that Icons are wasted on me..I think I have 50 spaces that go with my account and only 20 that I use, and out of those I use just a handful over and over again....that means I could possibly have 30 more. I'm just kinda weird about icons because I often feel guilty if I haven't made them myself, but at the same time I don't have time to make them, so I end up not having any! LOL!

ABC MEMEME! XD

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 19:34:50 GMT

HO HO! Bet you thought I forgot about that ABC Meme didn't you? Well no fear! I am doing it! It's just taking me a looooooong time! I think I'm going to have to break them up over a few posts because I seem to get wordy now and then... ;P ;)

BTW! I still need an E, K, Q nad Y if anyone's still interested...lord knows I have enough to keep busy in the meantime!

Lets head down the list shall we?

A - Art by akasha_lilian

Art! I love art! I like to see it, I like to study it, I like to discuss it, I like to learn about it, occasionally I like to make it. Art is just all kinds of awesome. It's also something that I think is kind of hard to discuss in a general sense because people's definaition of "what art is", and "what is ART" are VERY personal, emotional things and don't always follow a common logic. Lord knows my definaition of art has changed multiple times over the years. At the moment I seem to have two catagories for "art". Theres "art" that comes from the process of creating, and "ART" with a capitol A, that is something MORE then just a result of creative process. It's a fine fuzzy line between the two, and I still have a hard time choosing what it is that moves one work from one catagory into the other. I would not place my own work, professional or otherwise, in the capitol A catagory that I know for sure. But again, I don;t think thats a bad thing. :P ;)

There are many quantifiers I've used in the past to make my own personal "Art" judgements over the years. When I was young and innocent I used to base the quality of "Art" on skill and difficulty...but I soon discovered that too narrow a definition, because I have seen alot of modern peices that I now consider "Art" that really didn't take alot of work to create, but the underlining concept was amazing. However "concept" alone doesn't cut it, because personally I currently feel that if your process or product doesn't make your concept readily understandable to your veiwer, then the work is not successful "Art". Obviously my experience as a storyteller, and story lover has colored my perception of the art world, and Matthew and I CONSTANTLY have debates on this topic in particular.

On my recent trip to Florence we saw alot of art that is generally considered "ART" by the world at large. Beautiful amazing Renneance masterworks that have stood the test of time. And THAT got me thinking again on my definition of Art. At the time these works were created, they were really considered a craft. They were commissioned peices, many times done by multiple artisains working under one master, many times using established themes, that served a function. There is no doubt in my mind that they were, and still are, MASTERworks, but perhaps Mastercrafts before art? I'm still debating this myself (and with Matthew LOL!), because I saw many works that were commissioned, but still evoked an emotional attachment to the artist in me, is an emotional reaction then the qualifier between art and ART? What if that emotional reaction was unintended or different from the one the artist intended? Can a peice still be important "ART" if it doesn't evoke a personal reaction?

LOL! I could go on and on and on about this, and still not get anywhere! But thats half the fun of course, and one reason I love "art" so much, it can be such an eye opening experience in SO many ways!!!

B - Benry by lostsailors

Benry is the best character on TV for me right now. HANDS DOWN. I used to hate him (I mean who didn't?) and I still hate him a little...but thats the point ya'know? It's all part of the love affair! A man who steals people's daughters, kills people's boyfriends and massacures civilzations...AND raises Time Travelinf bunnies? I mean...OMG! What is NOT TO LOVE? He gets the best lines, he makes Locke look like a noob (actually he makes everyone look like a noob), is handy with a gun and a beaty stick, and always has a plan! He's my evil Indiana Jones of The Island....and I LOVE HIM!!!!!

..I'm sorry I don't have anything more thought provoking to say! LOL!

C - Cinnamon Rolls by lemonwitch

Cinnamon Rolls r delizcious...but I haven't had one in AGES. I think this is due to the way I first learned of cinnamon rolls. I first had one when I was a young'un, down the Shore (ie beach for you non NJ peeps) with my parents. We would go to Ocean City, NJ EVERY summer when I was a kid and stay in a house my Dad's cousin owned. I was amazing, there was sun and sand and bike rides on the boardwalk, and amusement park rides. Every night we'd go to the boardwalk for the rides, and shopping and snacking, and it was there that I frist had Cinnimon rolls. It was before the whole Cinnabon craze, and I think the booth was family run, and had their own recipe. They were AMAZING, soft and chewy and gooey and SO GOOD. The best part was that my whole family loved them, so my parents were just as eager to indulge us in sticky goodness as we were! OM NOM NOM! We ate them EVERY day that summer, and I couldn't wait to get back the next year so I could have them again... ALAS! The next summer something was..different..I think the booth had been bought out or under new management because their Cinnamon roll just didn't taste the same...I was so heartbroken!

When Cinnabons started opening up I got excited thinking I might get to relive my childhood memory from the Shore, but alas no! They were worlds apart from the magic I remembered...and thus I haven't had a cinnamon roll in years...I prefer to cherish my memory then risk dissapointment again...unless someone has a bun place they'd like to suggest! XD

now I'm hungry.....

PHEW! I feel so gabby!

Pretty accurate

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 14:28:37 GMT

- cute test, pretty close...'cept for that whole "lives in the moment doesn't like routine thing" Anyone who knows me will tell you what a horrid lie that is! LOL!!

ALSO this meme jigglykat posted is kinda cool!!

1. It begins with a list of all 26 letters of the alphabet.
2. Comment with something for me to talk about that starts with one of those letters. Make me babble about anything -- TV shows, actors, actresses, food, I don't know, be creative. :D
3. One topic per letter -- it's like a claims list! I will cross off letters as topics appear. (And one letter per person, please!)
4. I will post a new post talking about all 26 topics given to me!

Example: "A - Apple"

A - Art by akasha_lilian
B - Benry by lostsailors
C - Cinnamon Rolls by lemonwitch
D - Dr. Who by akasha_lilian
E - Elephant Rides by cre8vsteph
F - Family by akasha_lilian
G - Gargoyles by scottmatthew
H - Hobbies by bean_bunny
I - Icons by bean_bunny
J - JK Rowling by nothingbuthp
K - Krispy Kreme by cre8vsteph
L - Love Life by akaccino
M - Moose or Mousse by ultimatecozzie
N - New York City by _kyri
O - Ocean by whimsicalcow
P - Pencils by mack_at_home
Q - Quidditch by redwall_warrior
R - Ron by lots of folks!
S - Sketching by verselus
T - Tacos by lemonwitch
U - Unicorns by jisuk
V - Victory by digikoomi
W - Worcestershire Sauce by little_teacup
X - Xenolinguistics by mizufae
Y - Yellow by drcjsnider
Z - Zoos by illyanadmc

More Puppy mommy worry....

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 15:48:52 GMT

GOD what a morning!! Last night we had all our windows open in our apartment, and a storm rolled through, and all of a sudden Georgia seemed to freak out. She was shaking ans skittish and whining (she never whines!) I could not figure out what was going on. She's never freaked out over weather before, (last week at my parent's house we had a huge thunder storm and she seemed completely unphased by it) She had been acting/eating normally previously. I tried to get her to lay with us in the bed, and she seemed to calm down a bit, but this morning I woke up she was gone. She wouldn't come when I called her and I found her curled up on a pillow on the couch shaking and panting/breathing quickly again. I carried her back to bed, but she still seemed freaked out. I didn't know what to do, I searched all over the house but I didn't find any vomit or unusual pee or poop, she didn't seem to be injured when I checked her out, just scared to the point that she was partially shutting down. She did show interest when I brought out some sausage treats to give Kiki her medicine, and she ate the treat eagerly, but then went back to being scared. Kiki on the other hand seemed completely fine, and she's eaten all the same stuff Georgia has this week.

I even woke my poor parents up with a panicked phone call. I couldn't decide if I should take her to the vet or if that would be even more stress for her over nothing. After talking with my parents, we decided it was probably just fear over the weather or a sound from the vents outside. So I went around the house and closed all the windows, and turned the TV on for her. It shouldn't get over 70ish today, so it shouldn't be too hot. She seemed to calm down a little bit after that, so we separated her and Kiki like usual and went to work.

But now I'm sitting here completely beside myself with worry. I felt awful seeing her so scared with nothing I could do for her. She's never reacted like that before, I don't know where it came from! My mom seemed to think it might have been because of all the upheaval we've had in the family lately, loosing Jasper, and getting a new dog etc etc...maybe Georgia doesn't feel like she has a full pack again yet. I hope she's okay...I just want the day to end so I can go home and check on her...I'm going to be sick all day until I can see her again... :(

I can't belive mine eyes!!

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 02:28:44 GMT

OMG GUYS!!!! I can't believe it! Could it be?? Could it posibly BE OVER???? I think it is!

OBAMA!!! OBAAAMAAAAAA!

HELLS YES!!

Let's bring it on home America!!!!! XD *dances about like a crazy fool*

OMG GUYS! LOST!

Fri, 30 May 2008 14:44:03 GMT

Dood....DOOD that was amaizng..and aslo OMG ILU BEN

Dood seriously...Ben is amazing...is it just me or are the writers giving him the BEST LINES these past few episodes? I thought I was going to die laughing when John and Ben where in the Orchid Station.

John: "Is this the magic box?"
Ben: "........." -_-;; "No John. Why don't you watch this informative video?"

Locke is such a Noob

OH BEN ILU. I need not mention Time Travelling Bunnies of course... <3 ALSO Ben and his Beaty-Stick are TOTALLY OTP

And HAHA poor Micheal! He's all "OMG! Finally my not dying powers will come in handy!", and then Jack-Dad is all "Sorry..no, but thanks for playing" HO HO Sorry Micheal! I can't say I was sad, he's annoyed me from the beginning.

WALT! You're not cute anymore! Is that why you get no lines???

JIN IS SO NOT DEAD! Don't worry people...theres a reason Dan and his life boat were on their way to the boat JUST IN TIME..they don't write these things for no reason.

Also THANK YOU OCEAN for stealing Sawyers shirt on the swim back..OM NOM NOM

DOOD I TOTALLY KNEW IT WAS LOCKE IN THE COFFIN...from like...Season 3! YAY VALIDATION!

Also The Island is TOTALLY Atlantis!!! That explains the big foot and the hiroglyphs everywhere....

Jack and Kate are still lame, but thats okay because they both end up miserable and that makes me happy.

Also YES PLEASE bring back Mr. Echo!! I will be EVER so happy!!

GAH How am I supposed to wait til next season noooooow? *whines*

NEW BABY!! XD

Tue, 27 May 2008 15:17:13 GMT

Omg guys! I am SO HAPPY to announce the arrival of our new baby girl! XD FINALLY! After driving all over NJ on Sun to look at pups, we met Mere, and she was AMAZING... As soon as I saw her walking across the parking lot towards us, I knew she was the one! She was absolutely perfect in EVERY way. Georgia liked her IMMIDIATELY, she was the first female dog that Georgia showed any interest in. She was so affecctionate and gentle and quiet..she loves everyone, and she got along perfectly with all my mom's dogs. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect match. It's also slightly scary how similar she is to Jasper, they have the same build, the same ears, they get the same looks on their face. Sometimes I'll see her out of the corner of my eye and think it's him...it's SO weird. I am so so so grateful to whatever force in the universe set this up for us, I really honestly could not have asked for a more perfect little girl to fit in with all of us. I hope this amazing luck holds out! She has a bit of a cough, and a UTI so she's on antibotics for a few days, but she's getting along just fine!

Heres a piccie of us that her foster mom took once we were approved to take her home:

I am so glad the hunt is over, it's amazing how whole our family feels again, she fits so nicely into the little chi-sized hole that Jasper left. I can't wait to get home and see how she's doing! We haven't been able to settle on a name for her yet..at the moment we keep swinging between Kiki or Suzie...I'm sure once we get to know her a bit more we'll be able to choose... :)

A behind the scenes peek....

Fri, 23 May 2008 21:54:07 GMT

Matthew sent me some pictures of an installation thats been driving him and his coworkers MAD at the Met.... A wall of 58 glass panels, 5ft long, stacked over 20 feet high.. It's a portion of the reverse painted glass mural made for the first-class salon of the French ocean liner Normandie This will be the first time the panels have been assembled together since they were on the ship... I can't wait to see them in person, Matthew says they're breath taking....

Once the show opens (it's a bit overdue, at the mo') you can see them in person in the Masterpieces of Modern Design: Selections from the Collection show! YAY ARTS!(heehee and thats Matthew i the first picture..to think this was the man who was deathly afraid of heights!)

Coming to my senses (kinda)

Fri, 23 May 2008 15:44:09 GMT

Thanks so much for everyone's advice on my last post!!! I think I've sobered up a bit... After talking it over, Matthew and I have decided not to get a puppy..or at least not a YOUNG puppy. We might have lowered our cut off to 8mos. or so though ;) I'm beginning to think younger might be better for Georgia, she might be more accepting of a pup then she would be with an older dog. But we'll see who comes our way.

On Sun. we have an appt. to meet Mere, so we'll see how that goes. On Sat. I think Matthew and I might take a peek at The North Shore Animal League to see who they might have available. (thanks SO MUCH to valentineheart for the suggestion and your kind words!!) I'm trying not to get my hopes up though, I'm realizing young female Chihuahuas are hard to find. We're still scouring Petfinder and craigslist any any other source we can find...

I hope it goes well though..it would be really nice to have memorial day to acclimate a new baby into our home....

OMG I can't wait for the weekend..I can't concentrate anymore! :P ;)

I might be loosing my mind....

Wed, 21 May 2008 14:38:48 GMT

I can't believe it...I....I might actually be considering getting a puppy..... Am I loosing my mind, guys? Matthew wants one SO BAD..but he's never actually had a puppy before (all his dogs were older when his family got them), so I can understand his enthusiasm. I've had pups before, so I have some idea of how much WORK they can be....

Pros for getting a puppy:

We can get a little chichi thats exactly what we want (size, head/body shape, markings), and not need to wait.
Georgia will be guaranteed "Top Dog" position, and can train the puppy herself to be the kind of companion she wants.
Georgia seems to have issues with strange females her own size and age, esp when they are dominant females...however she gets along perfectly with my mom's females...I'm beginning to think this is because she met my mom's girls when they were young, and they were able to develop a friendship on Georgia's terms.
The two of them might bond more tightly.
Georgia does really well with small young dogs, so we might not have to deal with any tension in the house as they get used to each other.
Puppies are frickin' cute.
Puppies are more or less blank slates, so we can train her up ourselves, and not need to worry about undoing any emotional damage or bad habits.
Puppies are frickin' cute.
God willing we can have her and raise and keep her as our own for her full life.

Cons for getting a puppy:
LOTS of work
Must make the house Puppy-safe
Not a great companion for Georgia immediately, though she might grow into it.
Puppies can be expensive, since we will probably need to pay for the spaying and vaccs ourselves if we don't go through a rescue.
We work during the day, which means the pup will be alone for 8 hours, or be kept at my parent's house until she is older.
Breeders can be super sketchy sometimes, and I worry about health issues and over breeding with small dogs esp...
I have silly guilt over not getting a rescue dog, and supporting the breeder system (though I will NOT be getting a puppy from a 'puppy mill' or pet store, private breeders only)
I will worry over the puppy like a crazy overprotective mother....

Gah, I don't know what to do! I can't tell if I'm just getting frustrated over not finding our perfect pup on Petfinder...but part of me knows I won't find a "perfect pup" there anyway, and even if I did, there is no guarantee we would get her. Sometimes I feel I'm being too picky, but this is a lifetime commitment...I want to make sure it's the perfect decision for all 3 of us and the new pup. Also, I know all of the dogs I'm looking at will find homes anyway, if we don't take them. Small dogs whiz out of shelters like no bodies business (as we've seen!) so I should have this guilt that I do!

Oh I'm so toooorn! :P

Back to Square One...

Fri, 16 May 2008 14:56:08 GMT

I got a voicemail from Molly's foster mom as I got off the the train last night. Apparently she adopted Molly out from under us. A family saw her yesterday and took her home. She told me they "can't hold dogs", but this is after she suggested a Friday meet up to ME. ARGH WTF.... Finding a dog in this city is almost harder then finding an apartment. I have a feeling she gave the dog to a friend of hers so she could still visit her..she seemed really bonded with Molly and said herself she didn't want to give her up.

I was heartbroken, but as my mom said "when things like this happen, it just means something better is on the way." I hope thats true. :/ I really want a new baby to focus on so I can ease some of this sadness from missing Jasper, everyday is a reminder that he's not here and it doesn't feel like it's getting any easier....

In other news, thank god it's Friday, I hope today flies by.

OMGOMGOMGOMG!!

Tue, 13 May 2008 21:26:17 GMT

EEEEEEEEEEEEE! LOOK WHO I'M MEETING ON SAT!!! EEEEEEEEEEE!!!

http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=10765622

She's SO PERFECT!!! I hope she's as good in person, and that she and Georgia get along!!!

OMG I'M SO EXCITED I THINK I'M GOING TO BURST!!!!!! XDDDDDDDD

Ooooooo CHIHUAHUA!

Fri, 02 May 2008 15:50:11 GMT

Let me share with you a drop of PURE JOY....

Ramsey and Pablo
A collection of videos featuring the adventures of Ramsey, the Doberman, and Pablo, the Chihuahua. I have NEVER seen a more adorable pair! Ramsey is a saint, and Pablo is pretty much the perfect specimen of a Chi XD you HAVE to see them play together! I want to live in this guys house just so I could hang with these dogs all day long...

Also this video pretty much sums up all my favorite things about Chis:

They are the best breed EVA! *dies of cute!* XD I also want that song for my playlist.... (<-- DORK)

Puppies in the window....

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 22:18:28 GMT

Ever since Matthew and I decided to get another pup for Georgia, I have been OBSESSED with Petfinder.org....I refresh it CONSTANTLY and bemoan the fact that it doesn't have an ebay-like feature when you can be notified of new listings...I want new doggies to look at!! Matthew is just as excited, he even went to far as to walk down to the ASPCA during lunch and see what pups they had that weren't listed on their website. He is a braver soul then I! I'm terrified to see the pups in person, physical contact is the kiss of death for me, I can't say no once I've seen a fuzzy face in person.

This is also complicated by the fact that I don't think we can get a pup yet...aside from our emotional state and the fact that I want to make sure we get the best bud for Georgia, my parents are currently out of town on a cruise for 2 weeks. I haven't told them about Jasper yet, because I know it would ruin their trip, and I don't want them to come home to bad news AND a new puppy....also all the adoption places require personal refferals, and my aunts (who usually do such things for me, pet rescue activists that they are) are also on the cruise with my parents!

I've also noticed that most of the adoption agencies ask for vet references, home visits and the history of your past pets..I can't help but worry that once they hear how my poor Jasper passed they'll think I'm a neglectful dog owner and reject me! I also don't have a vet in the city yet, we've been lucky enough not to need one since we moved, and both of them were brought up to date on their shots when we lived in RI....

Oh so much stress! I just want a lil baby to snuggle and love and make our home whole again.... :P

EDIT: OOOH! I just registered at Petfinder, and now I think I WILL recieve notification when new pups are listed...HOORAH!

Thanks everyone...

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 02:13:55 GMT

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone you left a comment on my last entry...you guys are amazing, and it really helped to read your words of comfort... Also super hugs to my friends at work and macbeemer for being super awesome and sweet and supportive in person on Friday it really made a hard day easier to get through...you guys are the best!

Matthew and I are in NJ this weekend at my parent's house, dog sitting. It's good to get away and hide in the comfort of suburbia for awhile. We're still sad, it still hurts, and I suppose it always will, but everyday seems to get a little bit easier. I think I have to come to terms that I will never really "get over" my baby Mr. J, but thats okay. He was amazing and sweet and affectionate and the happiest dog I've ever seen, and I will always love him for that, I need to focus on that right now, not on the horrible memory of Wed. night.

Georgia is doing alot better with her 4 furry cousins to entertain her. She really is a dog oriented dog, Jasper was more focused on people, so I'm going to feel awful when we leave tomorrow, and bring her back to our empty apartment. I think we've both decided we need to find her a new companion. It might take awhile, we both feel so sad, and guilty, and the thought of a new dog is exciting and sad at the same time, but she really needs a friend, and I think a new baby will help us too. I don't want to rush into anything though, we need to find her the right companion, someone submissive and playful so they can keep each other company during the day, and also affectionate and cuddly to us like Jasper was. Definitely don't want a puppy, but a 2-4 yr old rescue dog will be good, and since Jasper and Georgia were both rescues it seems right. I think we both want another chihuahua too, I think I'm just hoping for someone who will remind me of my Mr. J...but we'll see who comes along.

In the meantime its just one day at a time....

Thank you so so much again, everyone. I really can't say how helpful your kinds words have been! They really have meant so much!

Mr. J

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 14:43:49 GMT

My little Chihuahua, Jasper passed away last night. We came home and found his little body in the livingroom. It was not expected. I think my chest is going to burst. The house is too quiet. It's too empty. I miss him so much, and I don't know what to do. It hurts to be awake, but I can't sleep. The only reason I got 4 hours sleep this morning is because I broke down and took a sleeping pill. I can't stand this..I love him so much..I can't stand waking up without him snuggled next to me...I can't stand the thought of sitting on a couch with an empty lap...I can't stand the thought of only putting out one bowl of food..what are we going to do? I hate the thought of Georgia all alone durng the day..I hate the thought of comming home to an emptier house..I miss his kisses and his snuggles and his sweet face..I miss playing with him and calling him baby names and kissing his ears....I feel so guilty and angry and helpless and scared and so so sad. It will never be the same without him, my poor little baby....It hurts so much....I want to get out of here..I miss my baby man......my lil' Mr. J...

1-2-3-4 Everybody do the Dinosaur!!

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 14:41:13 GMT

As folks might remember, my pals Jenna and Anna have an amazing store in Chinatown called Barometer, and they love to host parties. This weekend is the opening party for their Dinosaur Exhibition!!

Matthew and I both contributed pieces, along with a bunch of our artist pals! So if anyone is in NYC this Sat. night and wants some Dino fun, come on down and hang out, if their previous parties are any indication, it's going to be a mad-house of art awesomeness and groovy people!!

And for those who won't make it, heres my entry:

Via their press release:

DINOSAUR EXHIBITION!!!!

OPENING
This Saturday, April 19th
6-9 o'clock

Barometer: Vintage Objects and One-of-One Jewelry.
Open Weekends 12-7 and by appointment.
89 Walker St, 2F (One block below Canal, at Lafayette)
New York NY 10013

We've transformed Barometer into a prehistoric wonderland!! Come check out some dino tessellations, ascii art, airbrush action paintings, silkscreened posters and a group DINORAMA. We'll be rocking to T-Rex all night long with buckets of swamp drink to keep the party rolling. Tasty vittles graciously provided by Whole Foods!

ARTISTS

Warren Bennett, Lauren Bergholm, Brett Beyer, Patrick J. Campbell, Christopher Connolly, Matthew Cumbie, David Dawson, Lisa di Donato, David Geiger, Holly Gressley, Aaron Hitchcock, Max Kuller, Stephen Lowery, Phil Matricardi, M.C. Rockinstein, Fred Sager, Olivia Valentine, Jenna Wainwright, and Christina Zawerucha</a>

Sad news.....

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 15:59:51 GMT

Just joining my FL in mourning Ollie Johnson..he was an amazing man and an amazing artist...I can only hope to have a life half that fulfilling. I mean I loved him as an animator obviously, but the thing that stuck with me was how happy and excited he was about his work, even in his old age. Passion like that is an amazing thing.